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2012-02-11T18:45:00.000+08:00

2012-02-02T21:13:00.000+08:00

I woke up abruptly to the sound of your sweet, calm voice. With eyes open wide, I thought I was dreaming. It turned out, I was hearing your voice from the voice recording in my phone.

2012-01-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

I'm so far away from your kingdom of wild imagination, ciggies and girls. But I want you to remember me. And that I'll always love you. Forever and always.

how now brown cow?

2012-01-05T12:40:00.000+08:00

Today could have been 9 months. lol

2012-01-01T23:28:00.001+08:00

Standing far from me was a man I knew so well
I know his dreams of becoming a commercial pilot
His favourite colours are red, baby blue and black
He loves nevershoutnever and taylor swift, just like me

Standing far from me was a man I knew so well
He loved to smell my hair
He liked the rings I wear
He said I'm beautiful when I know I'm not

Standing far from was a man I knew so well
He had given me my first kiss
He was there when my nights were long
He had permanently tatooed his name on my heart

Standing far from me was a man I knew so well
He had pierced my heart with his selfish need for love
He had managed to make a strong heart, weak
He was all I thought he wasn't

Standing far from me was a man I knew for almost a year
He told me not to wait for him
He's happy where he is and that is enough
I only have myself to blame for what had happened

Standing far from me was the man I love
He doesn't know that I'm watching him from afar
He continues to love one girl to another
While I wait patiently for him to love me, again

Nothing, nothing at all

2011-10-18T19:13:00.000+08:00

I miss my best friend.

I miss my friends.

I miss the past.

I miss everything.

I miss you.

I'm gonna be 17 next Tuesday yet I don't feel excited. Why?

I'm standing on my feet

2011-08-30T13:08:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims out there! And happy holidays to ya'll non-Muslims!

Today's post will be short. As promised, I've uploaded my original song. Except I can't seem to upload it here soooo, you guys can listen to it HERE. Hehe okay Au Revoir! xoxo

Alive and still kicking some ass

2011-08-14T20:19:00.001+08:00

We're zee awesum trio. Ha ha ha :3

Funny how I sometimes stop and think about how old I'm getting. I can't wait to get married either. HAH. I know I've been saying this countless of times but I have to say it again; My song is not perfect yet! I'll probably release it officially sometime during mid August. Sooooo, I guess I'm okay after going through the whole shitty situation I was in. I never actually believed that there'll be a third party in my relationship. I was pretty much wrong huh? To think an 18 year old dude like you chose a urine-like taste 15 year old beer. Your standards does not impress me at all. Au revoir xxx

This my love, is goodbye

2011-07-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

I stopped using the shampoo I used to use. Cause it'll only remind me of you. It'll remind me of how you love the smell and would smell it like a sicko. We were harsh. Verbally and emotionally. We gave each other vibes we both don't understand. Both of us are to blame. We lost the reason why we loved in the first place. Think of me in the depths of your despair. Don't call me a loser for wishing you well. I'm letting go cause I'm strong enough. I believe someday, somehow, we'll love again. Or not. Hah. Just remember, we're not getting any younger. So keep me as a memory. A memory too precious to forget. It's been a month of sleepless nights, puffy eyes and tremendous weight loss season for me. So anyway, first and foremost, I'd like to thank my best friend, close friends and Facebook friends(lol) for standing by my side, giving me advices and helping me survive this whole ordeal. I am fortunate to have friends like ya'll. *hugsssssss*

I am still breathing. Still surviving this whole shit. I'm not gonna love another. My heart's on the floor. Claim it again. Someday. I will wait. I will wait till you change for the better. You may not see how much of a fucker you are right now. But soon, you will. I have faith in you. It may all seem like I still love you but that's up to your heart to believe. Your heart doesn't beat the same anymore. It changes its feelings very fast. Control it. Don't let it control you.

2011-07-11T21:46:00.000+08:00

I AM OVER YOU PUSSY.

Boohoo

2011-06-16T17:10:00.003+08:00

When I go to camps with my friends:

When I go to camps without my friends:

Ours

2011-06-14T22:22:00.001+08:00

School is getting boring each day
Laddaland made me scream a lot but the ending is sad. The dad died. Spoiler ((:
I'm in the holiday mood
I can't wait for camp this friday!!!!
I'm gonna learn how to bowl B-)
Gonna play pool next week
So many plans, so little time
Idk if I should go to my class bbq on 1st July
I am tired
I am hungry
I am thirsty
I am hot(not the warm kind of hot ^^)
I wanna work during the holidays
I am gonna sleep soon
oh yeah, tintinishot.com
Goodnight

I wanna wanna wanna

2011-06-13T21:50:00.000+08:00

Hehehehe! I might be watching that with my sis tomorrow after school (: Today school was boring. We didn't study at all. And we had a sex talk (: Alright so I need a haircut, again & I SERIOUSLY NEED TO DO SOMETHING WITH MY FRINGE! Below are some hair styles I'd like to try B-)

Dicktionary

2011-06-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

Tell me I look beautiful in that picture please. Gosh I feel like a fiasco. I should have used mozzarella cheese instead of cheddar cheese. I don't know what to do with my mac & cheese now. It's so...tasteless! I asked my granny what I should put if the macs are tasteless & so she said "put some salt". I didn't, of course. I don't wanna ruin my mac & cheese any further. I has plans of baking it but I didn't have milk(I'm too lazy to get my butt out of the house to get then). I was so bloody hell emotional, upset. Everything! The pain was beating me like a drum. The feeling was like as if you-lose-someone-so-special-kind-of-feeling. I managed to hold my tears though. I was exciting but bazzam! That cheese just had to ruin my whole day! My brother treated us to pizza hut for lunch. HEHEHE ^^ That made me forget about it which is a good thing (: So yoga mentioned on Facebook that none of us got into the F1 thing. NONE OF US. Surprised I was at first. Sometimes he likes to play around so I thought it was joke but turns out, IT'S NOT. wtfbbq. I skimmed thru the list, used ctrl+F to search for my class but damn no, my class wasn't on the list :O

So then these 2 things got me frustrated today:

3/4 of the students selected for the F1 thing is all from Bishan ITE. (@#%&!)
Most of them are students from the Event Management course at Bishan.

C'mon la. Does it really matter if you're from Logistics/Visual Communications/Wtv? You will still be trained to do the positions allocated to you. These people behind the scenes are so bias. I'm very well aware that a student's attitude, attendance, etc is part of the selecting process but really -.- OH WELL. Shall blog again tomorrow. Goodnight beautiful humans

Shizits

2011-06-11T19:09:00.002+08:00

Those are really gorgeous! Alright so I haven't been blogging for almost a month. Starting from today, I shall try to blog everyday (: Shitzee.I really have to get this off my chest. How many times have you people out there called Comfort but their lines are always busy? Recently, I experience the worst service ever from Comfort. Not on the phone kind of service but the face-to-face kind of service. So my mum & I called for a cab. They said they'll be arriving in 9-12 mins. A bit too long since we're in a hurry. After the long wait, the cab arrived. We got on the cab & we were flabbergasted when the cabbie complained to us. He rambled on about how he was at Kaki Bukit & he had taken a long time to reach Kembangan. He said we should have cancelled our booking. He had to hurry to where we were & he wasn't anyone near Kem. A cabbie telling us that we should have cancelled our booking when we are in need of a cab? It did cross my mind to get out of that cab but because I didn't wanna be late, I let it go. We(as in me & my mum) were truly disappointed with the kind of service we received. I bet ya'll are wondering why I'm peevish here. Reason being, I see no point in complaining to Comfort. I did it once but I never got a reply back. If anyone of you out there have had bad experience(s) with Comfort, share with me. I'd love to hear (:

Shall kick that horrible experience aside. Tomorrow, I shall make mac & cheese. I did it once but I didn't bake. Instead, I boiled it so it looks like maggots(as described by friends of whom I've shown the photo to)

Looks disgusting doesn't it? :/ The first time I made it, I used Mozzarella cheese. It made the process more difficult because the cheese would not break into smaller pieces! Oh and adding cuts of hotdogs will make it taste like heaven. Yummeh! K I shall post the the end product of my soon-to-be awesome mac & cheese tomorrow. Chow!

illuminati

2011-05-19T22:42:00.001+08:00

It's been hella long of a week. I finally got my ite ez link this morning. No more adult fare #fuckyeah! So the craziest thing that happened this week; I lost my guitar picks. 3 days in a row. I went to get new ones from Yamaha today. Pretty little Dunlop picks ^^ Unfortunately, I found one of my lost picks. So that makes 4 picks in total. I better keep them safely. Anyway, all the logistics class went to visit the army base logistics army base or the other way around or idk what shit. It was boring. B-O-R-I-N-G. No hot guys to stare at though. But never mind, we'll get to do so next thursday ((: School has always been fun. And I don't mean the lessons. Occasionally, I feel bad for the lecturers. Most of us don't bother to pay attention. It's sad. Like a dirty-must-throw-in-the-bin-pad. It rhymes. Lol. Okay so my boyfriend has a tumblr. So weird & hilarious. I hope he doesn't get more followers than me. I only have 12 followers. Poor me :-(

I don't wanna stray

2011-05-07T21:59:00.001+08:00

That shit up there made me tear a bit ._.

Anyhoo, I caught Thor 3d with gay boy at Plaza Sing yesterday. Bloody awesome I swear! Oh yeah, he made me wait for the first time. Tsk. Okay fug I gotta do a case study shit. And I can't work tomorrow :-( My weekend is so suckish this week that I feel like taking a breather at the beach. Maybe I should do so tomorrow, alone. I so need time on my own sometimes.

I want my old fringe back :-(

2011-05-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

Happy May day everyone! Lol okay so that was lame. I need to start making a list of rules of what not to do. Like sleeping in school for instance. Especially during LSM lesson & its practical lessons. I never thought I could sleep on hard cement. Ha ha. So anyway, I have NAFA on the first of June. YES NAFA. ITE ALSO STILL GOT NAFA. FUGGGGGG >.< Oh yes I watched insidious yesterday with my sis. It's similar to Paranormal Activity but it's even more fake. Shouldn't have downloaded it. Tsk. Gah fuggy. I seriously need a lot of sleep. To donate some sleep, please send sleep name to 98913632. Your donations will be gladly appreciated B-)

Mean

2011-04-24T22:35:00.001+08:00

Mo’Nique. An actress who didn't shave her legs. I totally admire her but after searching through google, I found out from several sources that she did shave her legs after some time. I hope it's not true. She's like my role model & the reason why I don't shave my legs! Pfftttttt.

Funny, I don't miss you that much anymore.

2011-04-17T20:47:00.000+08:00

I think I'm fooling myself. I assume I know love but really, I don't think I know. One thing I know is that my heart hurts a lot when gay boy leaves me for the day. We're gonna drift someday. Or maybe we already are. We're both gonna be busy doing our own thang. There'll be a wide gap between us, there'll be the deadly, awkward silence. I'm unsure if I'm prepared for this. I was always alone with no boyfriend. It was great. I was enjoying every bit of my time. Although I do get jealous sometimes. But shit now it's different. Way too different. I'm still figuring out whether that's a good thing or the opposite. So anyway, lessons have officially started on friday. I'm proud to admit that I was half asleep while my lecturer was talking bout business, etc. It's either (a)I need more sleep or (b)I need to start exercising. OH RIGHT EXERCISE. Idfr when was the last time I exercised. I've often believe that exercising will make me lose even more weight. And fuck it. I'm bloody hell 39.9kg. I'm in need of fats. Preferably healthy fats. Any takers? Forky maggi! I didn't take my picture back in Jan for my ite ez-link & friday, I got to know that my current secondary school card is recognized as an adult card in the system. Shitty hell. No wonder I had to top up so many times -.- I guess it's time to get myself a concession card. Unlimited bus rides(I think). Nyahahaha ^..^

I'm just being a silly vapid me

2011-04-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

My life is like roller coaster. My life is black and white. I see no light even when I've reached the end of the damn tunnel. I have to get through one shit after another everyday. Be it school, friends, etc. Nostalgic. Perfect word for the feeling in me right now. The awesomely fantastic indescribable times I had with my best girls last year, I bloody hell miss that. I've seen myself brooding over stuff not worth giving a fuck about. Sometimes, I convince myself to believe that I'm at the early stages of schizophrenia. Which is pretty much dope. I seek placid by sleeping like a pink pig for hours. I'm skeptical how people can withstand irritants on Facebook like people who keeps updating their status every few mins or worst, SECONDS. I've always wondered why I can't fly like Storm from X-Men. Ha ha ha _|_ Every now and then, I get flashbacks of things that I've experienced. Falling in the snow and stairs, left all alone to wait for someone to pick me up after my phonics class, fell in the toilet and had blood oozing out of the back of my head. I had three stitches. Bleargh. Are they signs of mental illnesses or just stress? Or something else I know nuts about? I shall leave that unanswered for the time being. xo

Skeleton

2011-03-20T00:39:00.000+08:00

He's so cute I melted. HAHAHAHA WTF TINTIN. So my 10 week prep course just ended last friday. Sad I was I must admit. We all bonded within a short period of time then poof! We're all separated :/ I'm starting to miss my classmates. Like so much please. Three weeks of holiday is damn boring I swear. Gonna get a job to keep myself busy so I don't think of things. So much things to blog about, so little time. Au revoir <:

Subtle

2011-03-11T22:47:00.000+08:00

Happy seventeenth love! Your mummy's gonna be fine love. Just don't stop loving her.

Hehe. Love you many many fish, mir & ranji! *hugs*

Time's changing the way we see each other.

We're not close like we used to be.

That's entirely because we're separated this year.

This friendship we have, cannot be broken.

So we're all going towards different directions.

And it seems so hard for us all,

to free ourselves from our busy schedule.

But this friendship we have, cannot be broken.

So pretty ladies, swear upon God that you won't

ever, ever dare to let go.

Cause this friendship we have, cannot be broken.

I'm holding on your rope

2011-03-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

The picture's taken on th 25/10/2011. We all look...horrible. Except for me (: So life's been good as always. Well kinda. Mainly, I need a job to keep me occupied. I'm gonna be fucking busy this week & the next. I've got to prepare scripts, rehearsals, etc. And I need to eat a lot too. Today marks two years of my singlehood. I ain't boasting or whatever shit. I've experienced enough shits in relationships. Though, the longest was not even a month. Lol. That was a lie. So like many girls out there, I've been taken advantaged, I've been used. But on the other hand, I was special to certain people. They made me feel loved, appreciated. But, love can't be forced.

Guilty. That's what I feel when I reject. It stays in me, for some time. I should quit being all emo for today's post. Ha ha ha he he he hu hu hu ho ho ho. Eh-ne-wei, I've always been very vigilant. I needa meet that cute guy again. Omg I'm being all so silly. HEHE ^^ HOLLY MOLLY JOLLY FOLLY! I CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY! @#$%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RED IS HOTTTTTTTTT

2011-02-28T20:17:00.000+08:00

Life's been good. Though I've been sorta moody these days. Holidays are coming. HOLIDAYS=BORING. I don't recall what I wanna blog about. I need to pee. I need to eat. I need to drink. I need to sleep.

2011-02-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

I know mummy won't see this but I miss the strong mummy I once had :')

So I had dinner with mummy just now. I was a bit too greedy I suppose. I wanted to get Ban Mian so badly but I couldn't finish it. Boohoo. Anyway, before I went to meet mummy, I went to get J.Co donuts with my group members. I'm having mixed feelings right now. I'm both scared & anxious for tomorrow! Hoho so I bumped into the guys. Lol. Then I went shopping for earrings. Everything was so tempting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I pity this rusty blog. I shall blog tomorrow if I'm not tired. I need my sleep cause imma have a longggggggggg day tomorrow. (:

I'm playing with fire

2011-02-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

I missed itbeatsfor-you. Like so much! Lappy was home sick but now it's finally okay! Yay! ^^ I don't know how I'm gonna sum up all the shit that happened for about a month so imma lay it in bulletpoint.

I'm busy preparing for two big projects
I got horribly tanned during camp
I've been dining at the school cafe literally everyday
My school skirt is big
I know how to play pool, well sort of
I'm kinda addicted to lan( I go there like once a week :O )
I MISS FISH, SIV & MIR SO BADLY :-(
I'm losing weight
I think I fell for someone I shouldn't fall for :X
I loathe the weather these days
I can't download songs like I used to. Fml
I just reactivated my formspring. Lol
I'll blog real soon cuz I gtg :-(

I feel so lucky

2011-01-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

I came across this somewhere. Sissy took it while I was choosing which Accessorize hat I should get. Hehe ^^ I miss that fringe. No kidd. My bangs super fugly. I feel....guilty! :O Oh, I think I've gained weight. I'm 40kg now! Yay me! ^^ And uh school's been awesome. I kinda love maths. Lol. And I so love my new friends! Unfortunately, we're all gonna be separated in 7 weeks time or so. Ah this sucks. I've got two projects to do. Meooooow.

Hints

2011-01-23T22:34:00.000+08:00

I got the sexy clutch. Hehe. I really should be sleeping right now. Imma have a longgggg day tomorrow. xxxx

Cuz it has all changed

2011-01-23T12:01:00.000+08:00

Hey. I miss school. That was totally random of me :O Anyway, my school is big. I've explored like less than a quarter of the school. Tomorrow I have some learning journey with my class. Bet it'll be boring! So anyway, I've made new friends in my class! One of them is vivian or vivi. HEH. Yesterday was awesome. Met vivi then headed off to the flea at Scape. My main objective was to get lots of rings. I really did. I'm gonna be broke soon. Dammit. & we even got a henna done on our right hand! ^^ Oh! Oh! They have this poloroid photo taking service too. It costs $2 per picture. Satisfied with the outcome of the picture I must say (; Omg I am so gonna get that clutch I was tempted to get yesterday at New Look! I knew I was only gonna use it for weddings or wtv shit but while walking home, I thought of other ways to use it. HEHEHE. Shit. I feel nauseous :'(

2011-01-13T19:46:00.000+08:00

Hey. I'm gonna start school tomorrow. It had started on monday actually. HAH. So many shits happened. Anyway, my bro recently bought for me Resident Evil 5 or sometimes known as Biohazard. I'm almost done with it baby! (; HAHAHAHAHA OMG MAJOR HEADACHE CUZ I PLAYED IT TOO LONG. K I SHALL UPDATE BOUT SCHOOL TOMORROW OR THE DAY AFTER. xoxo

2011-01-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

NEVER IN MY WHOLE LIFE(AS FAR AS I CAN REMEMBER) HAVE I SLEPT FOR LESS THAN 3 HOURS. DAMMIT.

You're phony

2011-01-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

Bonjour! I'm halfway done with a song. I'm stuck at the part after the chorus. Maybe I should just rip it off. Idk how to feel right now. I'm so nervous for tmr! Hehe. So uh these days, I've been listening to I Blame Coco's songs. Though she has a androgynous look, HER VOICE IS AWESOME! Ah. This sucks. They changed the name of my birth hospital. I like it as east shore cuz I love to say it as eeyore! ^^ Dammit. My headache's killing me. Au revoir itbeatsfor-you!

"Alone" time

2011-01-05T15:09:00.003+08:00

YES I WANNA WEAR THAT ON MY NECK IDIOTS. I'M GONNA GO WRITE SOME SONGS SO I WON'T BE CONTACTABLE TODAY & TOMORROW. I'LL CATCH UP WITH YOU GUYS ON THURSDAY NIGHT OR FRIDAY K!

Self obsessed

2011-01-04T18:59:00.000+08:00

Meet my sissy & cousin. We should hang out more often♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥!

Back

2011-01-01T20:31:00.001+08:00

Hey so I'm effing bored. All I did today was glue my eyes on this screen. HEHE. So as I said previously, I'm gonna explain what this itbeatsfor-you is all about. Yeah yeah you bet it's just some blog I made bout 3 years ago. I bitch bout people, I blog what I did/shits that happened, I blog the poems I wrote and the joy & upsetting moments in my life. When I looked back, I'm glad I made this blog cuz I saw how I changed drastically(physically, mentally & emotionally I suppose :P) When I mentioned I'm gonna move to tumblr, I find myself right here, at blogger. Seems like I can't be separated from it. Hehe ^^ Wtf am I ranting mann. So anyway, I came up with the url when I listened to My Heart by Paramore. Now now, have I mentioned that before? I think I did in one of my older post. So yeah, I've been sticking with the url since like 2/3 years ago? Sorry, I don't have superb memory :/ So I've been through the rough side of life. Prolly worse than you, yes you, the idiot reading this. Oh yes! I did mention bout the picture on the left side of the screen in my previous post aye? I pretty much picked the right picture yes? The guy holds a flower behind his back while the girl holds a knife behind her back. Think bout this for a min. That picture tells a lot of stories doesn't it? If you don't think so, go bang your head on the wall then come read this all over again. K I'm done with the animated gif's. I'll post them soon. Real soon.

P.S. itbeatsfor-you is no ordinary blog. HEHEHE ^^

1/1/11

2011-01-01T16:29:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!

I spent my new year's eve playing sims 3 then watch the (same-old-nothing-new) fireworks on tv. Everything just seems to be the same. Nothing much, nothing less. Yesterday was amazing though. Had dinner & chilled at the airport with sissy & our cousin. Oh, I've never exactly blogged what itbeatsf0r-you is really all about. *hint* It has something to do with that picture on the left side of the screen. HEH. K I'm off to make some animated gif's right now. (;

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya.

2010-12-31T13:13:00.000+08:00

Heyya itbeatsfor-you! (; I am dying to change my blogskin but I can't. K I actually can but I can't preview it. Dammittttt. So I've been good, I guess. 2011 is coming & everything is still in a fucking mess. Oh & yeah, I've tendered my resignation & am officially jobless now (: I'm so free I wanna fly like a bird! I had fun for those two months though. Whether it was at ion, taka or paragon. It was unfortunate to spend my last day of work at paragon(the place I loathe most). But it went well yesterday, thanks to Nad & Priya. (: Shit. I wanna party hard today. I wish I could get drunk. Hehe kidding! K I'll be back tomorrow! (;

Shitsz

2010-12-25T23:28:00.003+08:00

Hi omg what happened to blogger?! Why cannot preview template?!

I've moved to tumblr for real this time but I'll still blog here.

2010-12-12T12:38:00.001+08:00

http://prettylittleklutz.tumblr.com

Salut!

2010-11-30T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hey. This sucks. Tmr onwards, I'm reporting work at taka then paragon then taka again. Boohoo! FOR 2/MORE WEEKS :-( I'm so gonna miss my colleagues, like so much! Okay. So anyway, today I saw a lot of foreigners wearing a green top so I approached an African. She's a contestant for Bride of the World. HEHEHE. She told me to come watch her next week but I'm working; afternoon shift! :O One of them looked like a Barbie so I drop her that compliment. I couldn't help it! I had to get it off my chest ^^ He he he hu hu hu ha ha ha. I've been people watching lately. Okay not literally p e o p l e watching. Just that I noticed that a number of people are liking their own post on fb. Honestly speaking, I think it's awfully ridiculous. No offence to those who does that! ^^ Oh and, I'm self-learning French; one of the most beautiful language(in my view). Alright I shall blog again...soon B-)

6six6

2010-11-28T20:41:00.000+08:00

Hi. I don't mean to abandon this blog but honestly, I don't have time to update it often. Work's keeping me busy. I'm starting to think I don't have a life. Urgh. Oh, I have a sudden urge to make another blog. HEHEHE ^^ I've been meeting mir often. Fish & ranjani are always left out. Sorry :-( The four of us(girls) should go shopping or whatsoever! K. I will try to blog often. *pinky promise* ^.^

Schmoozer

2010-11-20T09:38:00.001+08:00

Hey. I've lost interest in blogging ever since work & other stuff are keeping me busy weezy. I'm catching Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 1 today. Hehehehehehehehehehehehe. I wish fish can come along but she can't. If you see this, I MISS YOU SO MUCH BLOOP BLOOP! :-( Anyway, I've been dining at mac for a week or more I reckon. Mummy says my cheeks look fat. Ha ha ha. Sale is coming & that means......MORE CUSTOMERS WHICH MEANS....TIME TO SWITCH TO FLASH MODE. Lol wtf tintin. Oh, I realised I've been hungry lately coz I don't have enough sleep. I read that from some mag recently. K time to go shower. Ehub, here I come!

I hate love songs

2010-11-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

Hey, don't make empty promises. Ya'll guys are all the same, sweet talkers. Mummy, I wanna be a le$bI@n.

*****

Today was zeemazing. Went to ion orchard with mir & fam. Fishy couldn't come along :-( Anyway, I had an awesome buffet. HEHEHE. And I went shopping. I wasn't suppose to splurge but I accidentally did. I needed to de-stress anyway ^^ TMRIHAVEWORKANDIAMSUPPOSETOSLEEPRIGHTNOWBUTHEREIAMBLOGGINGABOUTOHWAIT. I wanna try to go out wearing a guys' clothes. K I shall start with my bro's tshirtsxz. HEHEHEHE. Eh why guys stuff all so cool like water cooler ah?!

Au Revoir

2010-11-05T22:29:00.001+08:00

Hey. I just deleted my tumblr. My formspring dead already. HEHE. Work is tiring like fuck but it's okay. I'm strong like wonder woman. lollollollollollollollollol. Fish, sorry bout just now. Mir, I'm sorry too. Siv, HAPPY DEEPAVALI! I'm scared. I don't wanna be a bad girl. I think I like fish; easily cair & soft hearted. I can't bear to hurt people anymore. They can do as they deem fit. (':

http://www.formspring.me/FATFATTIN

Kleptomania

2010-10-27T11:32:00.001+08:00

I'm finally sixteen. HEHE. I love my awesome friends manymany! The smoke at Seoul Garden makes my eyes watery & I found it hard to open my eyes. Urgh. Paranormal Activity 2 sucksssssss. Yesterday was my first day of work. Tiring like fck. I wanna play my Sims 3 then head off to work :-(

itbeatsfor-you.tumblr.com

2010-10-15T16:40:00.004+08:00

HALUUUUU. I HAVE TUMBLR. DON'T LINK ME COZ I WON'T LINK YOU. I'LL BE MORE ACTIVE THERE AS COMPARED TO HERE. K BYEBYE.

My birthday's in 11 days ^^

2010-10-14T10:50:00.002+08:00

itbeatsfor-you, I still love you. I didn't abandon you (: HEHE. K so my N's are finally over. Everyday is an awesome day. Had a great time with two couples yesterday. We didn't bring along ranjani coz of personal problems. Anyway, we went job hunting! Huhu! I hope they'll call us asap! I'm so excited to work! ^.^ I need to do some REAL sit-ups. My tummy's too cute right now! Boohoo :-( Urgh. I feel like switching to Tumblr. Blogger so boring, makes me feel like snoring! K BYEBYE. xoxo

Diet's limited power

2010-09-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna miss ya'll. I'm gonna miss secondary school life. Will continue blogging after my N's. ♥♥

Beautiful monster

2010-09-13T18:11:00.001+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiii. Today wasn't a productive day. All I did in school was yawn, talk, eat, drink and talk and talk and talk... a lot. Yutyut so cute! Note to self: (1)Watch J Drama yutyut recommended (2)Do F&N mind maps (3)Eat apple pearl pear l(4)Sleep early everyday. Hah. Oh, Long cai send me to school today. Headstrong apek. Pfftttttttttt ~.~ Have you any idea how exhausted today I am bloggy? Bet you don't. Stupid blog. I wish blogs can talk. I'm so bored ttm :-( I wanna study but my brain tells me to zzzzzz! I've got lots to do. From homeworks to ironing school uniform. @#%@&! Oh, today I'm a happy girl. I've finally found someone I thought had died all this while. Facebook really is something. I shall try to find my dead brother on Facebook one day, confirm cannot find one! HAHAHA. EH, WHY IS THE WEATHER SO HOT?! I'm so sleepy. Shall sleep for a while now. HEHE. Oh, not too late to wish right! ; Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims! ^.^

Governance

2010-09-03T16:24:00.001+08:00

Heyya itbeatsfor-you! (; I've got a major exam on next Monday till Wednesday. Soooo, I'm gonna go hiatus. Oh! I've found some high calorie recipes and foods which will greatly benefit me and all those skinny girls/boys out there! ^.^

This blog has awesome number of views from may-sept this year! My target would be a total of 300 views from Singapore in the next two/three months! <:

Singapore

267

United States

Malaysia

Canada

Hong Kong

United Kingdom

Israel

Latvia

Taiwan

Ukraine

Till then itbeatsfor-you! xoxo

Heartbreakerrrrrrr

2010-08-30T16:37:00.000+08:00

Hi. If I could make a wish that'll come true, I'd wish I was a zombie. HEHE. I'm bored. I'm supposed to be studying and yet here I am blogging. Yesterday was just another hell I had to go thorough. I honestly miss my brother. He was once a brother I respected. What a pity; he has changed so much that I don't even know if he really is my brother. If you ever see this, change cause I want the old you back (':

******

School=Awesome. I never knew how much I love my friends 8) I don't like holding grudges towards people I know. It only makes me guilty for idk what reason. Uh-oh. It's 1619 and I'm still blogging. This sucks. I can't recall what else I wanna blog about. Haaaaa. Oh! Oh! Mirmir is gonna make a blog! ^.^ Okay. And before I forget to mention this ridiculous pact I made with myself, I better do it now. Ah. Ah. Ah. Nopey. I don't think I should mention it here. The next one's totally random! -Guys suck. That's why I don't believe in love, assholesxz.

Once upon a time

2010-08-25T16:45:00.000+08:00

Girls suffer more than boys. They have to go through menstruation every month. They become more emotional than they were before. How sad. I wish I was a boy. But boys suck. One reason why they do is because unlike girls, I think they don't have real feelings. Hah. Pardon me for giving such remarks. HEHE <: I don't intend to blog today, matter of fact. But I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Now, time for me to go back to my sleep and wake up on the right side from tomorrow onwards. I shall list down menses in my Number of Things I Hate The Most list. Loving is hard. Liking is easy. Forgetting is difficult. Hating is facile. Neutral is better. Oh that reminds me of neutralization(chem). What an idiot. What am I typing right now? Aiyaiyai! Hot guys are gays. Some are arrogant and full of ego. Un-hot(HA HA HA TINTIN) guys are pretty OKAY but they lack something....or more ^.^ OINK OINK. Just a lil piece of advise to girls out there; Don't keep on hoping a guy will like you/will stay loyal to you because guys will never stick to one, no kidd. Why why why why why why whye e e e e e e e e. Somebody's being a bitch. Won't let me go buy yummy food at Geylang. Oh! I so hate Geylang. Aiyaiyai! My mind's in a black right now. I can't think straight and my eyes need some resty resty restttttttt. Shall get more sleep now. Huhu! @.@

Transplant is scary :-(

2010-08-22T18:20:00.001+08:00

That's how my face looks like-the face on the first box from the left. Well, kinda. Hahaha. So it's been uh 12/13 days of fasting? Hahahaha. (a)I've yet to do 6 chem mind maps. I don't know what I'm supposed to do on anyway! (b)I've been sleeping a lot. So not good! (c)I failed to comply to my own rules. (d)I'm gonna have an all-girls cousin breaking fast for the first time in yearsxz! @#$%&! (e)I logged in MSN today. Note to self: Clean up mail for the second time of the month. School's been great. Gotta buck up on ss, maths, physics and chem :O Life's been great too! Sort of actually. Hahah. I'm losing weight! I'vejust gained 3kg now I'm losing more than what I've gained! :-( Oh! Oh! I'm being stalked on Facebook! So scary! :| Erm, fyi, I take my time to accept friend requests on Facebook. Sorry @.@ Oh yeah, I've brought back my tagboard cause someone asked me to! OINK OINK.

Something more

2010-08-14T17:29:00.001+08:00

You always bully me. I feel small and weak. But you're so gay, arrogant and egoistic. I keep telling myself that it's impossible but why, this heart's so stubborn. HEHEHE. Okay I'm so freaking hungry. Few more hours more oink oinks! =@

xoxoxoxo

2010-08-06T14:39:00.001+08:00

Learning journey to RSAF was boring. I am patiently waiting for the pictures. HAHA. Nononono. I am always unsatisfied with my blogskin. Somebody ought to tell me to stop changing my blogskin! I wanna be fatfatfatfatfatfatfatfatfat. Why oh why do most girls wear their powder till their faces look so effing white like those chinese opera? Mushrooms make me fat. Yay. Burger also make me fat! ^.^ I vely the happy right now. I wanna jump jump jump. I'm a happy girl! In a happy wooooorld! 8-) I shall give you guys a proper post soon. nfgsejhkhsabbcgkjt! HEHE. Eh, click here for my new tumblr link

Pole-like shit ass dude

2010-08-01T21:40:00.002+08:00

Heyya itbeatsfor-you! (; This week's been great. Not much break down as always. Hah. I feel devastated. Not actually devastated but quite. I wish I can say more but at this point of time, I can only say that mummy is sick. Doctors gave her two optionsxz. To make her life stress-free, every weekend, Sis & me will usually bring her out. Be it window shop or lunch or dinner, the least we could do was to bring her out. I am proud of myself. I know my route to success already. I didn't have to crack my head. It was already inside of me (: Oh god. That was cheesy! Ahhhh fasting month is coming in a few days. That means, I will be even more skinnier than I am right now :/ I don't like people who don't reply text messages. Mood swings, yucks yucks yucks. Okay what I am about to write below is strictly for people who rather waste their time on customer service rants. I suggest you go find something more meaningful if you are not interested, thank you.

-Last time I was at SGH, the uncle serving the fruits & beverages stall(if I'm not mistaken), gave me a shitty service. I ordered the fruits I wanted. Know what he said? "Which one? Don't look at the menu. Point to me which fruit you want." Like whattafuck. Don't tell me he doesn't know the fruits he's selling?!

-Next! This was a recent one. I went to Changi Airport Terminal 3. I was craving for the Beancurd at Jollibean so I went to queue. Two things here. (1) The Chinese guy behind me cut my queue. I'm not being racist but look, I'm just describing. (2)The auntie behind the counter saw me yet she attended to the guy who cut my queue. The auntie's a Chinese btw. If you bet I had that What-the-fuck-just-happened look on my face, you won cause I did. What kind of bullshit service was that?! And if you think I bought that beancurd, I didn't (:

-I've seen lots of foreigners here and there. Good for Singapore? Think.Again. I shall find time to blog bout this one here. Adeus bloghoppers!

See you bleed

2010-07-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

Hi. I'll try to make this short.

I'm typing with my right hand only. I had my mt N level oral just now & I reckon I'll screw up. Damai sec girls wear their skirts SO FREAKING short. Hmm do they have a dm? I guess not. What more, the toilets do not have tissue. Nice -.- There is nothing wrong with a girl who do not have a bf. At least she's no ho. Bus drivers don't let you eat in the bus cause they're jealous. I love Tire Swing by Kimya Dawson ^^ The study skills programme have started. Yay! :D Oh & today's siva's birthday------ If you see this, happy seventeen♥

I'm gay today

2010-07-20T15:21:00.003+08:00

There's not a single soul

Coz the stuffs' been sold

No prayer will get through

Even He knows you're true

***

Okay so I didn't have anything to do and wrote that poetry. Oh how it amazes me <: History was freaking easy just now. I was late for exam by a few minutes though. I'll have to thank bus 14 later. I like the weather. I loathe the sun. I love the apples they sell in school. I'm gonna hate tomorrow. I dreamt of you thrice. I like shrills. Slipknot's awesome. It'll be better. Possibilities? Hmmm

Shit happens

2010-07-18T22:54:00.001+08:00

ZOMG! I took the Circle Line for the first time. Yeah you got that right! FIRST TIME! It isn't anything to boast about but hey, I'm the type who's amazed at the littlest things in life <: So today I went to town with sis to study. Hehe^^ Uh I can't post too long cause I gotta finish up this shit f&n coursework & no, I HAVE NOT EXACTLY STUDIED FOR TOMORROW CHEM & MATHS PAPER 1 :O I will post tomorrow(if I can). Goodnight itbeatsfor-you

xxxx

Anthem for a sixteen year old girl.

2010-07-09T21:53:00.001+08:00

Hey. I'm munching on Time Out right now. Bet you miss me a lot, itbeatsfor-you (; Okay wtv. So I'm at the hospital right now. Mummy's gonna be discharged tmr! Yayness! ^^ It's a bore when you read this blog and all I always post about is school. I hate to elaborate but I love school. This is so boring. Everywhere I go, I see people with Iphone. Don't get me wrong here. I'm not that into Iphone. Blame it on the sucky battery life. Hah. I have so much to write but I really wish I can remember them all and post it the next time. I'm indecisive and I hope(or maybe wish), I can tell you; this heart, itbeatsfor-you <:

Crush

2010-07-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

Hi lovelies. I hope you awesome humans reading this had a good day today cause I did! Caught Eclipse with siva & fishy today. I feel like watching it again! Ehee! ^^ Anyway, school's been awesome. I've been getting closer to Him these days. Only He knows the ups & downs I'm going through right now. Oh well, that's life isn't it? Ahhhhhh. Hello. Okay if you don't like what I post here, tell it to my face kay? It's really not worth it when you tell others bout it and then that person tells me and it really pisses me off. I believe in giving people second chances. But look, they don't repent. Instead, they continue being their usual self. Simply said, they're not moving forward. Haaaaa. And uh, to those people who don't know a single fuck, get your facts right first. I believe He will show the light one day. Trust me, He will. I believe in retribution. To end this, here's a saying which fits you-know-who perfectly: "A leopard will never change his spots". Goodnight itbeatsfor-you, love you B-)
P.S. I know you'll see this dearest. Tell me you saw this cause I would love to hear your comments {:

32846

2010-06-28T22:39:00.001+08:00

After a one month 'holiday', if feels great to be back to school<:
1st July!
I GAINED 3KG! HEHE B-)
I forgot to do 3 secondary school physics papers
Why does my face turn red easily?
10am-4pm===> The sun rays at its strongest
Muru and f&n tamr
No durian, lychee, chocolate(I just ate lots thanks to fishy)
STUDY! STUDY! STUDY!
Don't try to put up a bold front tyvm
Amirah can eat an egg tart perfectly. Congratulations!
Fishy was being weird today
Siva quit her job like, finally!
I need lots of sleep
Yo-gah? Meh-dee-teh-tion?
Probability
Crush Crush Crush
Really a waste of time. Now off to do coursework )=
Goodnight itbeatsfor-you
xoxo

So cliche

2010-06-27T15:33:00.002+08:00

itbeatfor-you, please do not disturb my current state of mind. Okay so I surrendered. I only blogged today cause you look sympathetic. If I was witch, I'd find a spell to create another me. That other me shall do all my basic daily routine stuff while me, I'm gonna blog often so you won't look 'dusty' here. This is freaking ridiculous. OH WELL! Ehee! 1st July! ^^ I'm thirsty for eclipse! Oh, check out Kate McGill's covers & originals. Love em! (; I'm lost for words. I don't know what to rant about. Life is so tragic. Not to mention ironic too. Hah. So uhh I went to Stomp recently and read bout lotssa stuff. AHHHH! Now that reminds me of something I so gotta blog about! HEHE! I've been wondering why women wear their powder so thick they become two-toned! No offence yeah. From what I've heard, they wear em thick so as to prevent it from melting(if that's how I should put it). Till next time, itbeatsfor-you

P.S. That picture up there cranks me up.

2010-06-22T22:15:00.003+08:00

This heart's been wandering
This heart, itbeatsfor-you

Heavy heart to carry

2010-06-21T14:58:00.001+08:00

Ever wished you don't deserve your current state? I have. Many times indeed. No, suicide has never crossed my mind. I'm not being emo right now fyi. But getting slapped by your own sibling cause you intimidated him, calming yourself down in a cold shower, crying like a jaded person cause you accidentally threw a thick book at your mom- they're all part and parcels of life. No, it's not ill luck nor is it some shit karma. I fall hard to the bottom occasionally. Often, I stay there. But now, Imma make my way up to the top and I won't give a damn bout the time I'm gonna take. Be it slow, but steady. As long as I pick myself up, I know I'm gonna be fine. And, I'm gonna stay upbeat coz it doesn't take a lot of muscles to smile <: Call me a rude & disrespectful women for all I care. My judgement on her ain't gonna change. If blood ties shall I sever, then it shall be.

Wassup Blogger? I'm back! (;

2010-06-11T21:37:00.001+08:00

My dishes turned out fine despite having to use a small amount of sweet potato cause it turned bad(it even got burned a little). I forgot some ingredients too. HEHE. I'm too exhausted to elaborate! B-) Stood for more than three hours, mind you. Siv siv still hasn't message me! Tmr Pasta Mania with usuals. Confirm or not? Canadian pizza cancel already then want cancel tmr ):
I miss everyone. And I mean EVERYONE I know & am close with. I've been cooping myself at home trying to study. FAIL.
I'm gonna try to be close to Him. I've been straying & I've cursed him for my current plight. I realized my mistake & I'm starting to believe in Him.

Be right back.

2010-05-10T13:50:00.003+08:00

Gonna be more active at my tumblr for the time being.

Stop.Being.Irritating,Thank you.

2010-05-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

I love school. Night class with usuals every friday(L) Been extremely busy with school. Oh and, thanks Jia Wei for the mcspicy meal! I owe you a meal after the exams! <: One year two months ♥

evil in your heart

2010-05-04T16:05:00.001+08:00

I cannot believe this. Now i know who my true friends are. Yeah, we're a clique but we hold grudges against each other. Outrageous! You fucking two-faced bitch! So this is how you treat your close friend?! When i first saw you, i already had the impression that you're the type who chooses friends. How do you like it if somebody pranks you & keep your most possessed belonging? This game of yours have gone way too far babe. Think you're some kind of diva? THINK AGAIN. I wanted to tell you off but because someone said "just don't entertain", i decided to abort my intention. Gah! Please la, stop being a big fuck! And oh your sarcasm, i loathe so much.

Temporary feelings

2010-05-02T19:34:00.004+08:00

No matter how hard i try, i can't stay away from the lappy. Anyway, life for me has been full of ups and downs. My mood swings happen almost everyday :@! I can barely concentrate these days and i've always been sleeping very late and waking up so early the next morning. I think i've said mentioned that before in one of my previous post. Hah. But one good thing is that i'm starting to love school. Six more days! Hee ^^

-Stop being a whore. At least i'm no slut like you, walking around holding hands with one guy after another and saying i-love-you's to dozens of guys. I can't believe you can still hold your head up high. No wonder there are so many gossips about you. As a friend, I'd like to advice you but you ain't the type who would listen. Looking at your cheeky face disgust me to the core. A pretty face girl like you is capable of breaking so many hearts and you can even claim you've been single for so many years. HAHA -.-

2010-04-28T21:13:00.001+08:00

Correction, I hate formspring. I still think its stupid. Nyahah! Okay, I so have to keep myself away from the lappy!

I hate prank calls, Fucker.

2010-04-28T15:10:00.000+08:00

Hiiiiiii! English paper was pretty hard. Malay paper was easy. Formspring, I was wrong about you. So what I predicted came true. I AM USING FORMSPRING. HEHE <: I wanna put everything away. I really really gotta study for this mye. Shall go on hiatus. Tata!

control is a must .

2010-04-19T15:14:00.002+08:00

(click to enlarge)

Hiiiiiiiiiii! Try google my name & you'll end up at this blog. HEHE ^^

Pretense is my game

2010-04-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

I LOVE YOU MANY MANY! ^^

Ciao bella! ;D Today was fantastic! Gave mummy a treat at Pastamania. HEHE <: After roaming around downtown for uncountable times, we headed off here and there. Very tiring lor! HAHAHA! WAHAHA! We witnessed quite a number of accidents right before our eyes. scaryyyyy :| I miss school so much ): Foolish little bitch. ahah~ Alright smuffies! I've uploaded 'em pictures at fb. Goodnight lovelies [=

i could use a wish right now ;

2010-04-15T17:11:00.000+08:00

Hi awesome readers! It seems like my blog is & seem boring but wtv. Okay so i think that formspring is stupid. really really stupid. oh and, I PASSED THE 2.4 FUCKING KILOMETER RUN! obviously it's my first time passing that's why i'm so elated right now! hehe^^ so anywayyyyyyy, life is getting better for me. i so need to cut down on my intake of instant noodles. okay so that reminds me of an f&n test i'm gonna have tmr. damn i hate the weather. mummy says she's gonna find me a toy fan. lol! oh i didn't mention this before. a girl who has graduated from my school was walking past me and she exclaimed to the guy beside her," omg this girl so big already!" okay dokay! i shall update again say on saturday or sunday? (;

I'm her other twin (:

2010-04-12T16:06:00.001+08:00

I finally have time to update
Mid year exam's coming
I've been staring blankly at the screen
I might not be in the scrabble competition(thanks to my frequent absenteeism)
I love my sis
Mummy's birthday is coming ^^
I have not done the oral thingy which must be submitted by 5pm
I think I am paranoid(because of that fag)
I wish to prevent myself from harboring feelings towards someone
I have embarrassed myself by putting up my hand when mr muru asked who can't swim

accelarate!

2010-04-05T17:25:00.003+08:00

RIGHT NOW:

I.AM.FREAKING.HAPPY.OVERJOYED.ECSTATIC.ZEALOUS.

(proper post soon)

I've changed my tumblr link btw. click here

2010-04-02T16:26:00.000+08:00

I've told you from the start, i'm only gonna break your heart .

so flat a rogue could cozen you ;

2010-03-30T22:08:00.000+08:00

pardon my long absence lovely readers (: I have been very busy lately. school is getting much more boring than i had expect. i should not have left my blog dead for pretty long. Heh :D anyway, i didn't attend school today cause i overslept, thanks to the cough medicine. I would like to apologize to everyone if you've seen me forcing myself to laugh or didn't laugh at all the jokes(especially yanny yan's) I would also like to apologize for my late replies to those who have tagged me on my tagboard. life have been a bitch for me this year. pressure is pushing me back to the ground where i first started. I should have heeded mummy's advice. I strayed from my religion and this is probably a test i have to succeed. okay enough talk bout that. so err i quit my job. i found it hard to work & study. furthermore, that supervisor(?) is sucha bitch. ohhh i love blueberry donut! ((((: I've run out of stuff to rant on this blog. thanks for reading. ehee ^^ love ya'll! (L) oh and, i promise to update more often kay!

the sluttiness in you ;

2010-03-21T13:26:00.003+08:00

im off to work in a few mins. And, all tags have been replied to your respective blogs.

throbbing head

2010-03-20T21:55:00.001+08:00

i wish the holidays would be longer. yesterday; family+ljs+pasta mania+bugis+CO=Awesome friday. not to forget, i saw fartfart with two/three guys i know from popeyes. today; bestie+whitesands+ehub+tampines+kfc+ library= Fun. i hate it when i eat a lot & my stomach suddenly becomes bigger. i want fats. im way too skinny. And, i dont understand why people think im going on a diet/ am suffering from bulimia or anorexia nervosa. FACT: PAPAYA/PAPAYA MILK DOES NOT MAKE YOUR BOOBS GROW BIGGER. Lol. i saw that while reading a magazine. i have work tomorrow. boohoo~ i shall blog again another day. anyway, pictures are on fb. thanks for reading this. i sometimes wonder who reads this blog but no worries, there's a 50-50 chance i know who goes to my blog (:

delayed development ;

2010-03-15T20:52:00.003+08:00

it started with a ciggie. then a drink. then a pill and then you're gone. Now, bother yourself to click here and put a smile on your face. bye lovely readers and imy fishy! friday or saturday?

write 'yag' backwards.

2010-03-13T20:04:00.002+08:00

Hi. i shall post properly next time. meanwhile, please understand that i have three lives. tyvm .

a few more hours to go

2010-03-12T15:28:00.001+08:00

OH LOOK. ITS BEAN-VATAR!

take only what you need from me

2010-03-09T22:51:00.002+08:00

i spent last week idling away. i got my addiction blame for it. so saturday, went to airport with cousins & sissy to wait for our favourite bands' arrival. was a great day all in all. shall not elaborate further. and then sunday was spent on redoing f&n research. yesterday was pretty okay. got back physics paper. i scored pretty well. heh :D shittttttttz. tmr wednesday -.- boring and worthless 1 hour gonna be used up tmr for assembly. ahhhhh~ today, i was extremely restless. i slept for a few minutes during maths and i could feel my mucus about to come out! hehe ^^ so uhhh we got back our combined humanities, maths, eng and chem paper. like yue xi said: " we always do better in one subject between two of our combined humanities" in my case, i did better in history. damn~ i did awesome in maths. yay! hohohahahaha! i got 33/50 for chem! yayayayayay! :D :D :D fiqkyfiqky owes me ljs! i forgot what else to talk about. happens all the time .

Hey Scenesters!

2010-03-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

i have to change my laughter. wait, thats impossible. damn! tmr maths & hist. today army reminds me of a ghost from a scary movie and fishy made me laugh like hell. i think i have hearing problems. the canteen was chaotic and full of people like fuck. omg! omg! omg! toot toot teet teet listens to (symphonic) metal sia! hohohahahaha!

it's not gonna be the same

2010-02-28T20:50:00.004+08:00

im so disappointed in myself. i kept saying, kept motivating myself that i will make it thru. but it aint working right now cause

i screwed my f&n research
i procrastinated my research & till today, i have yet to reach a page
i haven't study for my ct which is two days away
i went back to my addiction ever since i got it working again

unexpectedly, i recalled the sentence which is found below my cations and anions table; "a winner never quits. a quitter never wins." tomorrow is gonna be another worst day ever. i can predict it. but i'll try to put a smile on my face. crap. i just realized i typed it in a different way. grrrrr~ tag replies:

isham: hello...

>>hello back .

Huixiann: Hellos ^^ Viewed & Tagged (; Do relink me yeas ? Don't so emo okies ? Cheers up xD

>> relinked & neh, i wasn't being emo .

fyshaaa: wei!tc @ sch!byee!

>> bsk dtg!

nadiah: heyyy there, im doing great . you ?

>> tag replied at your blog .

Haikel: MetalHead link me ok [:

>> linked .

ahhhhhh. m cramp! :@ time to sleep. i feel like changing some stuff on my blog. oh and, friday was a tiring day but i wont forget that day coz it was mr zulerk's last day & the day me, aisha & farah went to (insert word) and screamed our asses off then run away bck to the library. so kekek lor! zzzzz. im gonna iron my clothes. have been going to school with an un-ironed uniform for weeks!

Break Your Heart .

2010-02-25T21:22:00.000+08:00

National Museum trip on Wednesday with librarians was awesome!

we saw some Egypt stuff, etc.
i remember doing my chapter 1 maths test yesterday or tuesday(?)

and sleeping halfway thru it 2 times in a row.

i've never imagined saliva coming out of my mouth twice (ewww)

yesterday was super tiring.

i shall not elaborate.

these days, i find myself hanging around the library till as late as five.

my intentions of studying always failed.

today i didn't play p.e because of my leg

HEHE ^^

and, there was a maths test, again.

and yet again, i slept for a while

this time, my saliva didn't droop though (;

TODAY WE DIDN"T HAVE CHEM PRACTICAL. YAY :D

ate lunch with N.A then head off to library.

watched The Eye 10 with some juniors.

so much suspense mann!

the good thing is, instead of having some sex scenes or wtv, they make this movie somewhat humorous .

i always take a long time to blog.

nxt week got ct.

cnfrm FAIL.

MUMMY HASN'T BEEN TALKING TO ME FOR NEARLY A WEEK!

070310! ^^

2010-02-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

Hi! :D

12 days since i last blogged.

HEH.

firstly, HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER! (:

so freaking old!

HAHAHAHA.

anyway, those photos above are overdue mann.

cny 2 weeks ago(?) was awesome!

my class had to attend to the old folks opposite our school.

i teamed up with a sec 4 express girl(i forgot her name).

the nenek is freaking cute! ^^

ahhhh so 13 and 14 feb was spent on my cousins' wedding.

it was okay though i wasn't in any mood to take photos of the wedding.

i practically kept saying "when are we going home? my head hurts like hell!"

that was just an excuse actually ^^

i never like to attend weddings.

"nk gy nak?" *knocks head*:D

inside joke.

HAHAAAAA.

so uh last thursday, my group played tug of war.

as i've predicted, my group would be one of the top teams ;D

but unfortunately, i accidently hurt the bottom part of my leg with the rope! :@

and im not sure if its healing ):

though its a pain to walk a lot, this might be a good excuse to skip p.e this week :D

and yeah, the disgusting pictures are above.

oh oh! i've updated my poetry blog (:

ehhhhh, i've done my interview for my f&n.

that guy seriously look like he's 30+ sia!

HAHAHAHA!

aaaaaaand, he plays for moolah hahaha!

azira!

we'll meet either this week or the next kay!

im very the busy lor!

hee ^^

"HAHAHA *pause* HAHAHA *pause* HAHAHA *pause*"

as shawn had interpreted my laughter.

he is sooooooooooo cute!

but i must admit, sometimes he gets on my nerves -.-

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

my idiocy has caused one of my guitar strings to snap.

yay.

now cannot play guitar anymore ))))))))))))))):

HELP.

MY MUMMY HASN'T BEEN TALKING TO ME FOR NEARLY TWO & A HALF DAYS.

I FEEL SO GUILTY!

just don't let me fall asleep

2010-02-09T20:02:00.003+08:00

i won't tell you a long story

i won't use charades

i won't use numbers, silly

neither will i write it out

instead, i'll ask you to look into my eyes

and in a split second, you will'll know the story

i wrote the above poem with the help of yu ting! hee ^^

so yesterday was very tiring.

clumsy boy accompanied me to bedok library to return some books & without realizing, we had walked pretty far while we were talking about stuff.

and we were just so unlucky to board the same bus as nas -.-

wokay so today is tuesday which is the most boring & tiring day of the week

i think i pissed off ms foo XD
a lot of people know about (insert word here). And i mean A LOT
i don't know how to wrap hampers
i laughed so loudly & crazily i shocked mdm su & ms toh :D
i didn't manage to do my f&n today
i did not study in the library AT ALL
i was nearly able to learn chess
i counted how many heads went down to the table during maths
i forgot the rest.

i need to msg b later.

he wanted to sing me twinkle2 little star but i went to sleep already (:

oh and i wrote this last poem which fysha says is like a primary school poem -.-

but i dont know why i laugh everytime i read it!

roses are red

violets are blue

valentine's day i'm going to the zoo

AHHHHHHHHHHH.

TMR : CCA+ASSEMBLY+EYEBAGS+SS+MATHS=*sad face*

someone ought to tell fysha to stop introducing guys to me/me to guys cause it wont work!

Priceless Work Of Art

2010-02-07T16:57:00.000+08:00

Hi.

yesterday, went to 'study' with fysha @ tmart

i felt so real after laughing out so loud AND long(:

and fysha got irritated she pulled my hair just to make me stop laughing -.-

after i was done eating, i remembered b lives near

but i texted him a lil too late so there goes our chance of meeting for the first time ):

but nvm.

i'll meet b in two/three weeks time!

hee ^^

im trying to finish up a quarter of my research right now.

oh and, i didnt mention that something happened to my work while doing it in the library did i?

well, its pretty much a long story.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

so lazy to type some more.

bye.

P.S. there are different styles to headbanging.

business of misery

2010-02-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

hello.

i forgot what i wanna blog about.

how extremely cool is that?

happens EVERY time mann.

and oh, ALL MY AUNTS ARE BITCHES !

YEAH !!!!!!!!

Screw The Past.

2010-02-01T15:42:00.002+08:00

Hey.

yeah, im back blogging.

so um last satuday, the four of us went to dine at Swensen, again.

sissy and mummy had idk what pizza

while me & bro had the same thing- my all time fav.

even the drinks also the same -.-

after which, we headed off to RWS w/o bro.

had a lot of fun.

took a number of pictures which are all on fb.

yesterday, mummy, sissy and me went to bedok to return our library books and then headed off to Mac for my dinner.

im running out of words to say.

hahaaaaaaaaa~

eh, this month im gonna have to meet a number of people. (:

fyi, i've been busy with F&N like everyday?

i sorta regretted taking it.

Things Happen When You Least Expect It.

2010-01-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

Hi.
yesterday was awesome.
dined at Swensen with mummy & sissy.
again, i ate my all time favourite- Black Pepper Seafood Pasta ! ;D
this time though, i managed to finish it. (:
anyyyyyyyway, we headed off to Tampines after that
shopped @ C.O then walked around and i FINALLY got my cough medi -.-
Today, was pretty okay.
we finally hit it off huh?
i still have to finish up with my priority listsssssssssss.
im so lazy to type anymore.
oh & yesterday i bought a wrong shades -.-
lucky thing fatheen & amirah wants to buy it :D
yesterdays' pictures are on fb.
most of em are @ sissy's fb.

I Like The Way You Look @ Me.

2010-01-23T15:27:00.004+08:00

Hello.
School is okay but i really need to catch up with my studies.
anyway, yesterday i went to tamp mart to 'study' with fysha.
we studied a bit of chem then we proceeded to gossip !
nyahah ! =D
finally, i got to tell a close friend all about it(:
oh goody ! i cant wait for monday ! ^^

im so jaded

2010-01-17T14:15:00.003+08:00

HELL YEAH !
I AM SO JADED !
blurgh~
i should be meeting fysha later to study but i dont feel like going out.
if only i can sleep all my life and wake up when i want to. (:
yesterday i felt so down i forced down 4 pills and a cough medicine(in liquid form).
after which, i felt extremely sick & i was controlling half of me. -.-
anyway, i forgot what to blog about.
why do you even exist?
why put pain in me and my loved ones?
why don't you take a sharp object and take your life?
we all hate you.
you were never there when we needed you.
we're better off without you.
she was just too dopey to believe every fucking word that came out from your fucking mouth.

tik tok on the clock.

2010-01-11T21:11:00.003+08:00

will post on fb if i have the time !

-
been out the whole of last week.
saturday: lunch with mummy & sissy then off to town with sissy.
sunday: met fysha! =D
my life has now officially become school, sleep, study and nothing more.
sec 4 really is tough.
oh & i just got my F&N coursework question today.
gonna continue doing it right after im done updating this blog.
and oh, if possible, i'll get sissy to update for me.
zomg ! before i forget,
I HAVE MYSELF A WATCH THAT ACTUALLY FITS INTO MY TINY HAND ! =D
BAD THING, EVERY 1HR, IT'LL GO "TEET ! TEET !" (something like that!)
but i find it pretty cute ((:
shitttttttt.
i've accidently kicked my lappy to the floor ! :'(
where does it hurt lappy? ):
sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrry !
and i've even pour my drink till it overflows -.-
so basically, im not myself right now.
aaaaaaaaaaaand, i think i have ADD o.O
plus, i need to change my blog song.
xoxo.

i turn my head. hoping you wont see my tears.

2010-01-05T18:13:00.002+08:00

OMG.
THIS HAS TO BE THE UNLUCKIEST DAY EVER.
A MAN JUST EXPOSED HIMSELF TO ME.
KCCB!
SHALL UPDATE MORE WHEN IM OKAY ALREADY.

we'll be the same tomorrow.

2010-01-04T15:42:00.001+08:00

school was boring.
mdm su is our form tcher.
i dunno how to react to that fact.
oh and we got mr muru for hist & ss D=
right now im feeling extremely sleepy coz i slept at 1+ in the morning yesterday.
boo.
and oh, i was being rather harsh on my prev post.
hehe^^
shjakhgfjdhfuirhfvanusxbucbfeabchyh !
this saturday got remedial !
coolio~